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The business of hearing from God can be tricky. I once wrote that I don’t hear from God audibly. I still get comments about that post, sometimes because readers got the impression I don’t hear from God at all. Whoops.
When I was in Cebu last I shared with some staff about my sense of call to take the President position at CSC. One of them asked later if I would write about it, given the other blog post and my shady background on hearing from God (they didn’t say that last part). I liked the idea of sharing the story.
As I waited and prayed about becoming President at CSC, one morning stands out as the day God made his path clear.
I didn’t set my alarm the night before at the Christian Alliance for Orphans Summit. There were prayer groups scheduled for the morning, and to be honest, I was hoping to sleep through them. Crashing for 8 hours sounded like a good plan. I even prayed God would wake me up if He wanted me to go.
Talk about a confession of laziness. And foolishness (don’t pray to God about avoiding prayer!). I woke up at 6:45. Plenty of time to get ready for the day, pack for the flight home and go to prayer groups. My attempt to pull a fast one on God didn’t pan out. And I thank him for that.
While in prayer groups, the facilitator invited us to take five minutes and pray in silence for what God would have us do for the cause of the orphan. I needed that five minutes. The President position was beginning to take shape, with or without me. I was nervous, uncertain and full of questions about what I was supposed to do.
As I prayed that morning, a picture came into my mind. I’d call it a vision, because the sense I got when I pictured this was deep inside. It wasn’t in my heart or mind…I felt it in my gut.
I pictured one of those moving walkways in an airport. They move you towards the gate with almost no effort. I could see as if I was standing on the moving walkway, and a very clear thought came to mind. This wasn’t a premonition of the airport I would be at later that day. This was bigger. I was on a moving walkway in my career. The momentum was so clear that the ground beneath me was guiding me to where I belong. Then I had a deep-down thought, that felt as if it came from somewhere else. “You’re on a moving walkway. I’m bringing you where I want you to be. You don’t even have to step forward, I’ll get you there. But you do have to stop backing up.”
Did I hear God audibly? No. I didn’t need to, He made himself clear without it. God was shaping the path before me and moving the steps beneath me. I don’t know if I’ve been hit by something so clearly since, but something like that reverberates for a long time. The best advice I got were the deep-down words of a call: just stop backing up.
Are you backing up from something in your life? I pray you too will find yourself on a moving walkway.
The mind of man plans his way,
But the Lord directs his steps. (Proverbs 16:9)